very miserable day...


Bad mixed of work stress and boss's disapproval of my off for my performance on wed.


Was suspecting that he actually wants me to forgo my performance altogether.


Was feeling very lousy. wanted dot to come over. but she can't. was very disappointed.


Suddenly i recalled the disappoinments that i used to face.


Have been thinkin of calling her.


But today's recollections of the disappointments seems to have convince me that we are really not possible.


That i cannot be with someone who cannot be there for me when im down.


That's somethin she's most capable of.


Perhaps its a good idea that im using a new blog.


In that way, her BF will never be able to read my blog again.


She will always be safe.

1st weekend

this is a very strange weekend...
perhaps ive been too busy the entire weekend.
the weekend seems to have slowed down the entire rhythm that was spun from the week.
the retardation has form a void (again!) that simply allows you to slip into my life.


"she still misses you."
wat a killer remark.
there are perhaps thousand and one reasons why we shouldn't be together.
from different religions to character-clash to the distance away from each other.
but i guess i still miss you.


"can we love two people at the same time?"
"yes."
"... ..."