moving on!

my baby has been reminding not be too superstitious, due to the fact that i was told since early this year that...1) this is a bad year for those born in the year of the DOG, and 2) this is my decade-turning-point, where things will take a 180 degree turn and i'll probably be swept off my feet and get hurt really bad.


well... i shan't be superstitious, but actual fact is that this year hasn't been exactly smooth.... but wth, changes are inevitable, and obstacles can only build a oneself. I have, in this year thus far, broke some people's heart, and at the same time be broken by others. i share a fair deal of guilt and sadness throughout the last 6 months or so... The only motto that stood by me was that WHAT CANNOT BREAK YOU WILL ONLY BUILD YOU.


I guess I have hit rock bottom in the pit and stayed there for quite a fair deal. Things can only get better, and it should be! For those that i've hurt, im realli sorry for all that i've done but i realli do hope that you will be able to stand up and live life as it should be again... And for those who have involuntarily hurt me, i've moved on so pls dun feel guilty anymore, and move on too.


there are tonnes of ups and downs that we face in life, what is important is to enjoy the ups and learn from the downs, so that we can only be better day by day. =)


thank you baby, for throwing the ropes and pulling me up! (wah rau, so literal...)

pic trial~

i wanna try to put pictures up my blog....

sorry for being so suaku, but its quite fun and im bored... so bear with me!

hee...

my new pad

Im tryin to get my pet up and going... but i dunno where to put the codes such that it would end up on the correct side of my blog.... hahah...

tue: 10 Oct. Luther's Bdae.

I'm kicking out late for today, but I'll still be kicking around!


... lame...



ANway, Today's agenda is gonna be tight.

Things to do:

1. Collect DVD from Padam/Tracey.
2. Chant.
3. Go Library.
4. FaithWorks Casting @ 3pm
5. Attend Valane Granny's Funeral Wake (today or tom).
6. Go to Crocodile (today or tom).


Now, im gonna chant first, then call padam to check for the whereabouts
of my dvd... then i'll go collect from him and go to the casting... then esplanade, then come back.

.

This is getting bad


I haven't been chanting for the past 1 day! and today i haven't chant also!
die...die...die... can feel im losing my discipline!


okok, after im back, must start by chanting...

then go thru my dance steps...

then go read up and try to finish my Coarse Acting Book...

baby gimme one more time!

Today's schedule is a lil tight...

I hope to keep it tight...

Tonite, I'm having a rehearsal at WHY NOT. I will have to be very competent by tonite so that on friday's show, i'll be able to deal with any last min changes... Actually its not that bad, guess im juz scaring myself. Like Valane, i think i have this fear of trying, but i still do it anyway...

Speaking about doing it, that's exactly what i'm doing - Expose Karaoke Competition!

I'm doing it AGAIN! It is getting kinda wierd, i can feel that my voice has deterioted by folds. Or maybe it could juz be my confidence level. I seem to be lacking what my baby calls it "internal echo". So i'm just gonna scream my way through the preliminary tonite with JJ's 曹操. I needa find my voice (or confidence) back!


Ive cleared my piano session for today. So I still needa chant, and I will start reading this new book that i borrowed from library yesterday - "The Art of Course Acting" by Michael Green. Not sure if it's helpful but it sure is damn funny! And I saw one segment of Saltimbanco which was very interesting - the Mime Act. It will surely be fun to be able to tailor it and put it as part of my own segment!

I will also need to clear my final parts of Yahoo Mail and start calling up for castings!

Think I will give my computer genius self a break. I will not try to meddle around with the buring of DVDs today. Perhaps i can arrange and meet Marc tom! OKie! I will do that later!

I must constantly remind myself to have the discipline at home like when i am in the office. it is only then i can succeed!

agenda for tue - 3rd OCT (everyday is important!)

I have too many things i wanna do... this is very bad

Like wat ernesta said... I cannot be known for knowing everythin... I can be only be known for being good at one time... THEN better at knowing many other things~

SO i have decided to catergorize my priorities as such.

1. ACTING
2. SINGING
3. DANCING
4. PLAYING MUSIC.

With this sequence, i will know where to put my time accordingly.
For today, I needa achieve a few things. Time is rushing on my back. I needa get more things done asap!

1. Chant
2. Buy mooncake
3. Check through Yahoo mail to call up and send emails for castings!
4. Go Esplanade to check out books on Opera and Comedy!

ok, so sequence is as such.

I will first go and chant after this, then proceed on to the mooncake shop and pay upfront my moon cake. THEN go down to Esplanade to borrow books and at the same time check through Yahoo mail. THEN I will go back to collect my mooncakes before I go!

okie, set!

A NEW DAY HAS COME~~

I have decided to quit my job.


mix feelings...

some said i've finally woken up... that it's a good idea.

some thinks I'm a quiter. that i didn't try long and hard enough to know what there is for me.

some supports me whatever decision i make.


I guess whether the decision is right or wrong is not determined at the point of my decision.
Rather, it should be how much effort and what kind of discipline can i put in to ensure that my decision is correct.


YES. DISCIPLINE! <--- This is the word that would make a difference between a winner and a quiter!

starting on monday i will do the following:

1. start chanting at least 30 min every morning!
2. go on to yahoo groups and call up all possible auditions and castings!
3. practice my piano every mornin for 30 min!
4. start looking for tuition jobs to do!

I will add on more stuff when i can remember...

Baby! u must help me!!!!!


suddenly i recall this nostalgic smell... a scent of lotsa things to do and lotsa sense of satisfaction!
But it only came in a brief so its not enough for me to recollect this piece of memory.