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I spent the last week or so with entirely no internet access or whatsoever. Hence all i could do was to rattle on my Words and paste everythin over when im back... so there u go.....



20th Dec

Had a totally blessed work day just before our break I was caught on a cold, perhaps by the neurotic weather, and the 4 hours getting stuck in a jam on our way to work didn’t help any better. Before I know it, my whole my body was aching – a mix of the virus and the sleeping on the coach. And so, just one day after John and Paul left us, our very first show was cancelled due to this unprecedented jam. Great thing was that everyone was just laughing over it! We had our beginners, standby and our meet and greet all in the bus! On top of that, we almost didn’t make it for our second show! And so we had our 20 before beginners on the bus too. I almost felt like shit when I was in the cookie monster, so the meet and greet was actually terrible. I must admit that I’m not at all a professional actor but hey, good thing about operating on a suit was that cookie remained professional even though I didn’t – he was still smiling throughout the show even though I was cursing and swearing inside him! Way to go, Cookie!

Right after the second show is usually my favorite time of the day – Dinner! But I was too tired, too hungry, to get my butt out for food. So I had my dear friends to grab my bite for me. Ignorance is not bliss – especially when you don’t know that the fried rice you are getting for your friend will turn cold and oily and completely gross after a very short while. Well, as Trey as I am, I couldn’t differentiate bad food from the good one just as I can’t tell white wine from beer. I gobbled down the food, thinking that I must be damn hungry. And when my tummy protested by starting its little dance floor inside, I could have smelled something fishy. But hey! No! I thought I was hungrier than ever and continued shoving the cold fried rice down my throat! And of course the stomach had to blow the dance floor to a full fledge rock ‘n’ roll concert!

As much as all the mishaps have happened, I was actually very fortunate as at the same time, while I was worrying how the rock concert in me might just turn out to be puke erupting while I’m in Cookie suit, the shops in the mall were all halving their shutter, and when I hit the back stage, the manager of the mall was just explaining to Daniel that there will be no power supply in the shopping centre that night and we would have to skip the show that night! Can you believe it? I was so ready to puke inside the mascot and be all professional about it and dance on in ‘pookie’ monster. But I was saved! Hahahaha…..


I guess at the end of the day, it’s really about one’s perspective on how he or she can be blessed. But I’m just saying that it has to be the shoten zenjin protecting me from the worse that could happen.


22nd Dec


After a one day break, we’re on for the show again. Today has been bluntly exciting. Perhaps there was more than just my blessing for the last show’s cancellation. I’m starting to believe that there is a bigger mechanism that is structuring the failure of our shows. It is a very foul spell, a curse…. a Daniel.
Evidence of Daniel as the alpha-jinx:

1) Our show success rate has been maintaining at an all time low of 33.333% since the day he took over as the Show Manager.
2) Michelle’s Cell phone was robbed while she was talking to him.
3) Malaysia flooded when he came over to Malaysia.
4) Singapore was already raining very heavily before he came over to Malaysia.
5) Teng Hong became my room-mate.


Ok, crap….



Our first show was called off half way because the vocal tracks for all the characters were not able to be played… (HUH???) And the last show was called off half way due to a power trip in the mall. So, we only had one successful run for today. Strange enough, everyone seems to value the success of the show more and more. For me, I only wish the children who came to watch this show did not left feeling disappointed, since they missed out my personal favorite – the snow and the confetti.


Since we only theoretically performed for one show (though Elmo did most of her part for all the 3 shows before hazard occurs), Priscilla assumed that we were all good and fit to go for a midnight, which was of course anything for me, since I’m such a sucker for cinemas.


Ok, on to the main topic – Confessions of Pain.

There are many ways to motivate oneself to accomplish great things in life. Usually, they are things that are far beyond his or her immediate need. In this show, the directors consistently remind us of the driving force behind all the motivations of the characters – Pain. All the actions and reactions are solely motivated by pain. Pain of the lost of one’s beloved; Pain acted upon others from following one’s sexual desire; Pain resulted from causing pain in others; Pain from the childhood; Pain from one’s ignorance; Pain from one’s past; Pain from a predicted future.
The movie started by exemplifying how a murderer inflict physical pain on his sex victim and for that he had to experience physical pain when the Chief smashed his head after seeing the grotesques he created upon his victim. The most blatant example for pain - blood, gore and all other physical torture.

But they are all the same. These physical pains are nothing but manifestations of the pain experienced by one’s internal torment.



“Do you know why does wine taste so good?”

“… …”

“It is because they are difficult to swallow, that’s why they taste so good.”

If only the Chief can manifest all his pain by swallowing wine, in that way, he didn’t have to kill. Apparently that is the only solution that the director provided. At least that numbed Bong’s vengeance – he was cleaning the back of the concussed patient who was the cause of his girlfriend’s death.


Chief’s Resolution – Revenged, but had to suffer for his vengeance, death of his closet kin again.

Bong’s Resolution – Found out the cause of his GF’s death. Numbed all hatred with wine and found a new lease of life again.

Guess drinking is not too bad a deal, actually!


23rd Dec

Our days in Malaysia are drawing to an end, and I hope this will not be the last time I’m traveling on work! I’ve had a chance to see how and learn and feel how the people in Malaysia like. They’ve been generally warm and live a humble life. Interesting facts about Malaysian (based on my observation):

The poorer people are usually the friendlier ones.
The taxi drivers are very lowly paid – Meter starts at RM 2.5 and skips only every couple minutes.
They don’t like to use the meter because they don’t earn much with it .
Lucky thing is that their rent is relatively cheap! – RM40 per day.
Most of the drivers are friendly and they don’t mark up the price too much.
The Chinese drivers in JB don’t seem to like their Malay counterpart too much.






24th Dec

Tomorrow would be my darling’s birthday! I can’t wait to go back to her! Poor thing, she has been having severe gastric problem for the past many many days… She just vomited again. I’m hoping that my going back on the night of her birthday could surprise her! Nonetheless, I’m also quite worried, because my dear Stage Manager just told me that there might be an extra show to compensate for us being late for our first show few days back due to the flood. Worse of all, the show could possibly be on either 25th, which means that I might have 4 shows that night and thus be back later. Or even, if the show is on 26th, I wouldn’t be able to go back on baby’s birthday! Guess there’s nothing much I could do but to keep my fingers crossed.


I’ve ordered the purple roses! They’re gorgeous! And I’ve also ordered the raspberry cheese cake, which looks unbelievably delicious! Mummy has also been so nice as to get the camera for me! Now, all I need is to buy a birthday card for my darling to clear the list! I hope I can remember! And I’m really glad that I have the time to get all these things slowly and quite systematically!


Come to think about it, I was wondering what to get for the rest of the guys and how to write a note for them! My other concern is also if I’ve got enough money to make my way home or not. I think I have barely less than a hundred to survive the rest of the days, lunch and all!


Next is that I’ve bought 2 more tops from Mango, which makes my luggage half a Mango Display. I think I’ve spent almost S$300 in that boutique! What to do? I’m quite clueless about my girlfriend, and I only remember her saying that she is pretty much a Mango girl, so I guess as long as the label is there, she wouldn’t say no to it!

Ok, think I’m gonna crash, it’s almost 4am and I really dun have the energy to rattle on any longer… Goodnight.

Day Two~

Day Two

We started the morning by a breakfast that was, other than too salty, too pepperish, too bland, everything was actually quite fine. I have decided that age is catching up and I could no longer eat as much as I used to. Two rounds into my buffet, with a small bowl of porridge, and a simple set of English breakfast took me very quickly to my brim. Lastly, I topped it up with a glass of milk (not cold at all!), a cup of coffee, and a glass of orange - the perfect recipe for a smoothie in the toilet~~!

Shortly after, we were all ready to go to our performing venue – the brand new Jusco Shopping Centre in KL. Indeed, it is very ulu… there was nothing around the building at all! Empty land and on one side, some factories or something… very old, very low…

Our coach got stuck as we arrive at the mall, I guess we went up the curb and the wheels got stuck in the soil. One day before the Grand Opening of the new Shopping Centre, we were at the car park in front of the mall, having our very own ground breaking session. Even the tarmac got dug up on the other side of the bus. Somehow after looking at damages made, I was quite sure the bus was not just a pretty transport, but also a sturdy fighting machine at the outside!


The whole team was starting gel as we took pictures in the bus…


I’m impress by how inform I suddenly am, after watching 2 days of BBC – there was nothing else to watch on the Malaysia Hotel T.V:

Channel 1: TV1 (Local TV) – Boring…
Channel 2: TV2 (Local TV) – Boring… …
Channel 3: TV3 (Local TV) – Boring… … …
Channel 4: NHK (Japanese Documentary Channel) – WTH!?
Channel 5: ESPN (Sports??!!!!???) - *&^%^%%(&(^%^!!!!
Channel 6: BBC World (MY CHANNEL.)
Channel 7: NTV 7 (Local TV) – Boring... … … …
Channel 8: 8TV (Local TV) – Boring… … … … …
Channel 10: Vision Four (Channel A) - Very Blur English Channel.
Channel 11: Vision Four (Channel B) - Blur Channel, but still watch-able.

Day One

My very first night in Kuala Lumpur, lying alone in the hotel room, feeling all satisfied, only with slight distress. The food and the shopping had pretty much buffered the friction created from the transition crossing boundaries. I am silently grateful for the single room. Finally, I’m thrown into the abyss of lonesomeness, only to recall that one can always see clearer without disturbance. And hence my hotel room has became a shrine for myself, rid of all distractions but only the motor behind the spinning fan above me, and the all-so-familiar tunes soothing through the silence in this shrine. I’m discovered a sense of serenity. Sweet…. Lovely….

Continue with the more sensible updates of my shopping escapade. I was slightly pissed off with the rogue that sold me 4 out of 6 DVDs with the wrong or unclear versions. Had a good bargain session with that scoundrel, only to have him cheating me off to take his sweet revenge on my vicious bargaining ability. If I am going back anytime this week, I would demand that he returns me a proper version of all that I ask for. If not, I might have to wreck a scene in the crowd to make him learn his lesson… heeehee.


Ok, getting all tired, my eyes are giving way to chill wind in the room.

Goodnight.