resurrections of the daunting feel.

Early this week, i passed by her house, there was an accident stated.
i was very worried that it could be her.
so i immediately messaged her. asking if she was hurt.
she ask me not to worry, that she is fine.


Lane told me that she still misses me.


i dunno. But she has successfully integrated into a part of me. A part of my history.
A fading but still vivid background. Constantly refocusing into the foreground and swirling back into the blur.


What else can i fall my memories on? All my pictures with her had been incidentally deleted. Its quite interesting to know that in a matter of time, memories have a way to blend into your senses, allowing it to remember only by a feel, a very nostalgic and familiar feel. You no longer remember vivid incidents any longer. You no longer remember all the things that you said, all the places you've been together. Nothing but compressed experiences that could only be triggered from the heart but not the mind.


From her smses, i can feel that she wants to keep, from my smses, u can only feel fear, and that i want to leave. wat a coward.